*And now you're all i ever wanted boy .
Count the stars as infinity;
and tell me you'll love me for eternity!

一顆心屬於一個人　在愛情裡什麼算公平
而當傷已傷了深　是不是催眠了自己

What really happen yesterday ? Lols. I forgot wad i did ystd . hahas . so im not gona blog abt it? =D . hehs `. Hasn't been working lo . Cos exams !!! Today n school was quite nice ? Chatted all the way or slept throughout . Nicole, stay strong ! =D .GirlFs are always there for you .. loves !! . Intended to celebrate Tweiying de birthday today . But tmr den celebrate . hehs `. Might be goign teoheng tmr . hahas . It's been long since i sing . haha ! and her birthday lies on the children's day ! lols. So coincidence laa. hahas . ok . Bought your present le hor Tweiying !! Your fuc*king hounour . LOLs. ok . Picturs nt loaded yet . Laziness laa . hahas `. im gona go eat now . hungry laa ! hahas .
&&yupps, Ping, i noe ur uncle just die and kana burn toda.. but don be too upset.. im here for you ok =DD.. cheerup !! . Stay happy k.. can call me up if you needed somweone to tok to =DD.. takecares` . && NicoleGF; yupps. if cos u must stay strong ok ? .. Ilove you lots .. - Im the cause of your pain .
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ #闭上眼睛忍住泪别哭泣 . 只有天知道我有多麼愛你. The love i gave out , Is it fair? I'll never get a answer . I walk alone, and i don't even know ! . I say im strong , im just lying . it's time to settle down . - Please have faith in me . ilovesyou;

*It'sNeverEnough*

一顆心屬於我自己　愛情裡找不到公平
而當你最後選擇了逃避　我學會不公平

*Take your sword and your shield , there’s a battle on the field !
There's a place in my mind;
No one knows where it hides.

220907 & 230907 >>>
Haas. went to Bugis meet up with NicoleGF and bought Jean'sGF de presents .. hehs` . went o pray first and eat . Bought some food down to her house at hopugang soon afterthat =D . Quite alot of people will there .. hahas . Shufen,jean,nicole, joey,weiying,tessa,kraven,yingying,javier and me =D . hehs . ` talk lots of craps.. Junwei & Chester came down to meet up . Tonned throughout.. jean,nicole,lsf and yingying went rounding till morning den come back . so me,javier,weiying ,kraven and joey slack ard . went mac eat and craps ard . Went Kovan meet up with joan together with weiying and joey . Early morning called Sam come down and went sengkang . Went up mingze's house and bath . Rested and home .
240907 >>>
Didn't go school today !! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEAN !! =D . You're loved ! ok.. stayed home th whole day today to rest . I wanna go out tmr to play the candles . haha . OK . gona go eat now =D.. - Im thinking of how you feel now ..
250907 >>>
Ok, hehs `. it's lantern festival day today =D . went downstairs meetup with GirlyJ den meetup with IrxinPEH. went century square and catch a fuckin lame movie, Underdog ! ok. this dog very the power ah .. watch it ! LOLs. went meetup with Gavin,Shawn and Xiang ... sians . Talk cock and went home . slept early too . Very tired .
260907 >>>
Went skool togthr with GirlyJavier . Not a very good day actualy. haas. There's FREE ice cream in school laaa. lols. and eveybody's like crazy over it siah. hahas `. Chatted alot of stuffs with my SisterLSF .. =D . Last long girl =D .. hehs` . and bcos i didnt wirte any letter to the school for being absent, the fu*king teachers wanna stay me back for detention . But luckily never =D . Great hor . haas. today gona stay home man . bored !! Took many pictures . But don't think will load it today =D . Next post perhaps . Exams is next week . Wont be posting regularly !! Im gona STUDY STUDY STUDY !!! . Yupps . and theer's sopemthing wrong with my blogcode . Many ppl can't see my tagboard when there's actually TAGBOARD !! its ok . lazy to change the code.. mess with it next time when im free . haas. - GirlFs ; Mugg hard =D .. love !!
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~＃我要的是你对我多一点的好。但感情遇上第三者，该如何解决？.. & because the feelings is sooo strong , it lasted for soo long . How long can i wait ? *sign , Now it's just seems you mean so much more . - and you can put the blame on me . imthinkingofyou

*DoYouKnowWhatIWant*

* I'll be the reason for your pain . and i wanna sing . It's been long since i went teoheng and enjoy th singing sessions my girlfriends had wih me =D..haas. and sorry girls; i didn't mean to left you all alone on lantern festival ... I'll make it up . lovees ~*

*If I can't apologize for being wrong, then it's just a shame on me.
I’ll be the reason for your pain;
And you can put the blame on me..

190907 >>>
Didn't went school for today . Cos didn't feel like going . haas`. so stayed home to actually cook dinner for my family.. Den tessa suddenly call to ask me go work. haas. so i rushed down with her to toa payoh? hehs . and saw some ppl tio gan by the agents over there and kana chased out by security gurads.. quite a funny scene.LOLs. and cabbed home ... oh man, if i gona like tt cab here there , im gona flipped soon !!! $$$$$ are always flying everyday .. and kravenY bought donut for me =D.. hahas.
200907 >>>
Didn't went school again laa. hehs`.so went to work together with Kraven,Jean & Ying2 . and got some newcomers and that fucking girl who's name is june? haas. SOOTKIA !! .. whatever things she oso wan tell the boss.. hehs`. she realli sucks laaaaa... but it's ok after a while.. and home!! haas. =D
210907 TODAY >>>
hehs =D . Talk cock ard in class all along can . Discuss about chalat in the end never open. LOL. cos no more space . It's ok girlFs , still got other time =D .. and they say maybe going tessa's house =D . hehs`. it's been long since i go her house . hahas. Nicole:: i wanna go pasir ris too .. lols. you know why i know why ah !! hahas. and lantern festival is coming soon !! Quite lookin forward to it laa. hehs. im very devoted to gohonzon now ^^ .. LOLs. - I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware , im sorry sometimes i didn't care !
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ ＃其实真的好爱你。所以不想失去你！Boy, understand that there's some problems, And you're not too blind to know, all the pain i've kept inside me, even though i might not show.. =D . thanks for always being there for me .. - i'll be the reason for your pain . ImSerious

*ImSorry,IfThingsGoWrong*

*As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that
I've done things that haven't occurred yet
and things that they don't want to take responsibility for.. *

我好难受！不快乐！

OK , small little short post . Im not happy with my now life . Messed up and beyond control . And it all just began in one thing . Deep regrets .
When the whole world is turning left , that's when im turning right .
Who would ever in the world understand me ? . Never trust in what you thought could be . Things turn the other way . -Im not the girl i used to be .

* ComingToAnEnd ? *

Yes; I've teared . You happy now ? Your 'innocent' brought you there and that's the mistakes i've made !! && What i thought would never leave me , I find was never mine .

*Im ain't strong at all , afterall .
Why must it come to the point ;
when i know that would happen ?

BACK TO THE STARTING POINT........
I can't rmb what i did on 11/9 and 12/9 le.haas`. so wont write much about it .
13/09/07 >>>
Feeling very down recently . Not much words could actually explain . Yesterday just went to toa payoh to pass some stuffs to Lewis then meet up a while with nicole and a co . and home i went . And when reach home and wanted take my clothes , the house shake siah . Indonesia's earthquake can . Sad for them . Today early morning also feel the shakiness . haas . Finally , had some talks between girlfriends and girlfriends .It's all abt the heart to heart stuffs . No hard feelings !!.. =DD . All 8 girls was there and it was rare to have so many. haas. Later still gona work . Have been down on my luck and depressed !!! I don't like the feelings at all . Im not in the least happy .
14/09/07 >>>
I didn't went school today after some 'storms' in the previous night . And my eyes wil so bloated can !! . Waited for IrxinPEH while im slacking ard with ivan . haas` . Then down to parkway with irxin den soon east coast . Seat at the same position at the beack and talk cock . The wind was cool . haas . =D . Then at around 9.30pm ++ went home le . Slept late too .
15/09/07 >>>
It can be say , a very boring day la . Also very no life lei . Wake up and called ard , in and out . In the end meet up with IvanL again , slack ard as waited for IrxinPEH to come down . hehs . So just went to play cards and a very gei yan uncle come over and showed us 'magic' . LOL . cute la . haaas` . And Irxin went home soon after that , and remus accompannied me to eat along with lil Leroy . haas =D . Home and sleep .
16/09/07 TODAY !! >>>
Early morning wake up and down to Soka pray . Finally !! haas . Den meet up with IrxinPEH again . Slack ard tampines early in the morning . Soon , Shawn & Gavin came down along . Played cards and 'magic' again? lols. and home togethr with irxin . haas . reached home , sleep again , Really very tired . haas . Now can't slp le . Many things to do . Feel that im aking myself more stress only . Maybe that's the only way to run away from thing? . LOls. perhaps and perhaps and perhaps . - I really don't know what mroe to say . Im really tired now . Stress up completely . It's just another day tmr .
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ #我们都接受，一定是彼此不够成熟...Really feel like letting you know how i really feel at times when it comes to the point . I've really tried my best to do what i can . But i don't understand why isn't it enough . It's ok then . I don't wish to have more stress or what . Time heals all , i guess =D . Though SOMETIMES it's seems like its getting better , but is it true tt it really was ? ..A simple life , that's all i ever wanted . - I know there are sometimes you will be there for me , but how much of me have you seen ? 别把难过留给我！ ilovesyou;

*Undefinedfeelings*

*I don't know why i am i still feeling so down after so many days had pass . I just can't stop myself from thinking all the things that had just happen recently . I guess i will just change for the better now !.. That's what has to happen only . No hard feelings , yupps !.. But just feel abit different . Things really change alot . depress and down . If only i can sleep and never wake . Girlfriends; I think im drifting ...
I hope i'll sleep and realli no wakes.... :D

*Never belive in what you belive !!
The mistakes i've made;
was a devastating act .

Haas !! Im at ying2's house now . and she's currently sleeping can ? That's great ! So i can use her comp. hehs . Never belive in what you think you could belive . This line not bad ah? Because just suddenly feel that something things really look deceiving !! . or am i being too sensitive or did i really think too much ? Many other people had warned about and why am i still soooo .... ok . Let's not talk about THAT .. hehs `. after schol, cabbed home with ying2 and she came to my hse and 'send' me to her house . LOLs. hehs ` ok.. yupps . im here at her hse blogging !! =D was very bored .and goign worjk right after she wake ups.. hehs`. still got as longgg time. hehs`. happy slpping =D.. nightmares. What am i really thinking of now ? Confused&Stressed! . End here ! . -What you belive might not be the truth ! . Unpredicted truths , lies & trust .
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ # It's about you and me , and nothing in between . haas` . Be there for me always . Stress up recently ok . and yupps , im going down and down soon .. stresszy . - how much do you care . iwantyou

*ImAlwaysHereToListen*

*I don't understand why ? . Faketitude . Pisses !! . I just hope maybe im too sensitive or think too much ok & people really changes fast . Just found out 2 =D . hehs` . and of cos, treat me the way you wanted me to do to you too . Things might go off faster . Since it had happened like that , then so be it . *

*Tis better to have loved and lost ,Than never to have loved at all.
"Have a heart that never hardens & a temper that never tires;
and a touch that never hurts .

It's blogging time again ! haas .
FRIDAY, i didn't go to work . Down to aljunied and meet up with my Baobei and watched the dunnoe wad pasta with her . hehs . Soon , Jaron & ShiYong called us down to slack . But didnt even really slack then went to find JoeyK slack instead . Kind of bored there laa !! . Cabbed to grandlink and watch them play pool . Cos i dunnoe how play . LOls. Went to find Jean at hougang and slack with her at kovan and her carpark till 11pm like tt den went home . Talk lots of cocks .. haa .
SATURDAY, went to meetup with YanHao and Alvin . Slack for awhile and went to my jie's house and slack . Because of the tortisePEH , so i almost fall asleep at her house ! First time wait for sooooooo lonnngggggg can?!! haas . den down to suntec watch apartment 1303 with irvinPEH . hehs . The show was quite scary canns . hahas . after the show went slack again ! OMG ! almost slacking everyday siah .. wanted go kbox with my sister and a co. But didnt !! haas. im a good girl. so i ordered MAC as i was supper hungry . I didnt eat a thing from the momment i woke up laa. haas . Slept at 6.38am in the morning till 1 ++pm lo.. hehs `.
TODAY, yupps . im at home of cos . Maybe going parkway to buy some stuffs . haas . Didn't go soka today !! That's a bad thing . haas . Sian!! School reopen tomorrow le . Don't feel like going . the holidays really fly soooo fast can . hehs . and exams is coming soon . maybe won't be blogging often too . =D . Took some pictures , Lazy load . haas . end here !! -ZuiJing, TweiYing!! you should know what that songs mean ? hahas.
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ ＃无条件为你不顾明天的安稳为你变坚强相信你的眼神.. hehs `. A kiss goodbye will be better =D Actions speak louder then words . hehs `. - When is the right time for you? . WithLoves

*IWillAlwaysLoveYou*

*Why are some of the no use stress coming back after everytime its goes away? fuck it siah . haas`. i miss my girlfriends =D *

* I won't let her go near you ? =D
It's something in my dreams i never knew just what it meant to you;
It's something in my life i just never knew what to do ...

Ok`. miss me for not blogging this few days eh? haas`. ok. life was'nt that god this few days actually.. but i did manage to calm everything down laa. hahas`. i live strong =D ok .. talkibn abt tokin abt the day b4 ystd , SUCK !. Yesterday ? yepps !. a nice day actually? hahas`. Meet up with NicoloLOVES at my hse downstairs den went to toapayoh met up with kravenY study at mac and soon JeanGF came down to join us .. hehs`. yes! i studied the correct chapter ok! haas. and kravenY & NicoleLOVES took candid shots of me and its like so ugly can? and went o work. haas`. .. okok laa.. hehs`. tmr dunnoe wan go work anot lei.. sians !!. if neve work, gona find my sweetheart or baobei to talk =D. hehs`. my one week holiday just like tt fly away lo! study and work ! haas`. nice time .. siah... - I wish upon the velvet skies .
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ #Every one has a destiny to find . Looking in your eyes I have found mine. .. haas`. I IS GIVE OTHER PEOPLE SEE !!!! hahas. - lalalalalalalalal yumyumyumyumyumyum , ineedyou

*NothingMattersMore*

*ok.. been very stress up recently can? .. thanks those who have shown concern to me recently ! haass. You're all oved ok! haas. i hope i can overcome everything =D *

* & all the things just seems to be my wrong .
All the pain i have;
is cos im too naive .

My love for you is a journey; Starting at forever, And ending at never.
Today, as usual , stayed home den ying2 ccame to my house and walk me to her hse .. so nice eh? lols. went to her house and played dota !! hahas`. and she sleep and sleep . tats was good, cos there's no one to fight the comp with me ! =D hohos. den chase after bus den went toapayoh meet up with jean ! . kraven was late .. den saw some 'bengs' walking ard the office . yuck was the word to describe . hahas` . den after work, ate carrot cake and settle down for a little chat and home i come =D . haas`. many things happen ok . and its like ............. nothing to say . end here ! - It's really a stress up time for me NOW! and i realli dun like the feelings . I donnoe what's wrong between everthing . Im too tired le..
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ #I miss you more than ever now ,, because I really need you somehow. I don't care what will the answers be after the hundreds, i just noe for now let's be quiet somehow as in a way happy =D i don't wanna shed any tears or throw tantrums . Just wanna let you know , i miss you i love you and i really need you .
and boy, i wanna tell you this :

{A part of you has grown in me.
And so you see, it's you and me
Together forever and never apart,
Maybe in distance, but never in heart.}

haas`. i like this .. hehs`. please dont give me the cold shoulder again =D. -I hope we're just more then friends . iloveyou

*Don'tLetMyTearsGoBy*

*You're the first thing I think of
Each morning when I rise.
You're the last thing I think of
Each night when I close my eyes.
You're in each thought I have
And every breath I take.
My feelings are growing stronger
With every move I make.
I want to prove I love you
But that's the hardest part.
So, I'm giving all I have to give
To you... I give my heart.*

*When the sun shine, we'll shine together .
When the whole world's turnin left ;
It's when I'm going right .

Im nobody's fool, I just play by my own rules !
Ystd , hehs`. was a quite a boring day too . went aljunied meet up with joey to tak my 'stuffs' den went sweetheart's hse and slack . After a while, went to singapore post to 'study' .. lols. and back to her hse again as we find no more mood in studyin le. haas` =D . sleep abit at her hse and as usual, did somethings 'naughty' .. LOL . and back home at 10+pm.. hehs.
Today , early morning wake up go soka at tampines . hehs`. den down to parkway eat and bought my notebooks and some pens . no life siah` and i was very unlucky today can !! first, wake up early in th morning with eye half close, den quarreled with my mother, quarreled with CBpeh,den rain as i was gg home den 'walk lights' , when going up the bus i stepped on an uncle de slipper and he alost fall !!.. and he mumblled something but i didnt hear as i was listening to my earpiece.. reached home more SIAN! tmd .. very depressed !! . maybe im too tired le. hehs`. doin facial mask now.. kind of a little relax .and one more thing, im sick ... end here ! - I need someone to let me be , just who I am inside .
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ You can run if you want but you can't hide,Tellin you it's the truth don't you ask why . yupps . Has been picking small little fights recently. What's going on? I don't like it when i get angry at you . Because you never knows how i feel . The feeling of anger for you, It's ok as long the feelings are there . Why do you act so cool when you can't stop thinking too ? . And please don't ever be shy =D -iloveyou i know, i just hope i never have to let you go . BeMine

*MakeThisFeelingLast*

*ok.. im havong a bad flu can? .. xingku la!! . No more shout outs from now on. haas`. and i hope i feel be feeling better after a good rest . hehs`. *