ZZZZZZZZZ.... super tired out.. Nowadays hor.. keep slpin late siah.. TODAY I'LL SLEEP EARLY !.. haash. chatted again with IRXINpeh... till 5+am.... never go soka nor zoo.. saddest things! hahas`.. Bad mood today ! Change liao la change liao la *somebodi !! ... sian la.. few days den change liao la hor!!.. fuck up siah`.. y THAT 2 cbk keep say i boxim siah.. i really busy tats why nv contact u two de lo.. fuk up ah!,,, Die Please !!!!! . Tmr QINGREN's de birthday le.. stress + stress = stressful ~ . think not enough sleep bahs?.. probably.. ~_~" hahas. jus now have a chat with HOSENG and very tok cock ah him.. haas`. sibei crap.. LOLs.he cheers my day up can?. hehs`` ..
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ in no mood of it !
(SHOUT.OUT)
`` sibei the streess and fuck up ah!.. can cry?

Boy; let it be?

Very tired AGAIN!!.. have a chat with IRXINGpeh from 12.30am till morning.. 6+am?.. nv sleep properly lo.. sai ! haas. den early morning kana kaobei by my parents over smoke things.. sianz siah`. what a nice family.. i dont feel im belonging to one... hehs`.. =D didnt wanna blog toda.. but its stil part of my life.. hahas`. ^^.. tmr my JIE going zoo lei.. den mother going SOKA.. den father work?.. den borhter tag with my JIE.. i dunnoe should go zoo or go soka siah` sian.. at night den decide lo.. hehs`. QINGREN de bday is friday le.. after 3days is MELVIN de,, wa sian,, june manymany ppl de bday siah`.. including ME!! ^_^ hahas.. 26june.. long way to go... *claps,haven eat dinner siah`` sian... lazy go eat!!. gastric my weak!
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~＃你不曾爱过我。 Baby don't you let me go, Baby don't you let me down.
*I wish you could promise me that you will never leave,
But that is a promise I wouldn't believe.
I love you more than you will ever know,
I hope I never have to let you go.
I want to be with you night and day,
I wish you would come and take my away.
I imagine the future years from now,
And I hope we can stay together somehow.
Forgive me if at I get out of hand,
But there are a few things that I don't understand.
I question your motives and everything you do,
But only to insure that your love is true.
I've learned that things aren't quite as they seem.
Sometimes I wonder if love is a childish dream.
Patience is a virtue, that's what I've heard,
If you wait by my side it will be worth the reward.
(SHOUT.OUT)
`` You said you loved me, you said you cared,
but when I turn around you are not there.
I waited for you long enough
you put me through hell and never gave up.
You pushed and pulled and played with my heart
the moment you said we will never be apart,
now I am looking at you dead in your eyes
and all along you were telling me lies.
I'll never forget what you put me through
but sure enough you'll want me to come back through.
In the end, just to let you know
I'll always love you rain, sleet, or snow.

Boy; were you be there? Don't feel shy.. Take the first move were you? *i'll tell you when the time is right boy~you will noe.. till the day u start tat move...
*DARLING; go qingren de bday lei.. haas`/. give him some face?

YESTERDAY~ sians bodoh.. last minutes jue ding go TEOHENG, and i actually went there SLEEP!! zzzzzz..... cos very sian lei. dunnoe why.. no voice sing.. something troubling me,, but dunnoe wad it is lo.. hehs`.. nvm. don tink abt it... HOSENG works around tat area.. so wana ask him wan sent me home and he neve bring his helmet!.. cb.. die please! LOLs...over there onli got AK,DARLING,TESSA,YING2,JEAN & YITING ... stay there till 7pm den went off.. den took cab go tessa de house.. sat at her house watch show awhile den took cab home to meet my JIE eat dinner with AK.. hehs`.. she's a great ........... *Laughs!!..at night chat on phone with IRXINGpeh... until 5.35am??.. haas`.. very tired out.. my dark rings gettin darker and darker !!! slap tat .. heh`.
TODAY~ nothing happen lei.. i today dun wan go out ah.. very tired// eyes very pain.. guess slp too late den now eyes pain siah.. thanks to tat *jiaHUI la hor.. hehs`.. kk..
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ ＃终与看开爱回不来。始终觉得你不明白！
*Many times I've searched the sky
looking for the reason why.
Why he said he loves me,
why he said he cares.
Why he said he would never leave me,
and why he's never there.
Why is my head spinnin' 'round,
I feel all my dreams crashing to the ground.
Why do I love that boy so,
Why I wish I will never know.
I wish life was a merry-go-round
and when it went to fast I could slow it down.
Time has turned the hands of time
and stripped it from the tracks of my mind,
and what I thought would never leave me
I find was never mine.
(SHOUT.OUT)
`` As I stand out in the rain,
Teardrops scaring my face,
You still never notice me,
It's like I don't leave a trace.
I walk down the street,
Soaking wet and scared,
Light steams through nearby windows,
For this, I was not prepared.
The puddles splashing,
as I walk down the road,
I stop and turn aside,
Shivering, wet, and cold.
If only I saw you,
Standing there beside me,
But I didn't,
It is you I'll never see.

*Boy; im searching for peace,longing for that smile,im searching for the person who will walk with me that lonely mile.Were you?
*7girls.. ; When are we going out together again?

Time goes by ; Please don't lie !

YESTERDAY~ haas`.. meet DAMIAN at paya lebar mrt & set off to Tampines and went meet GAVIN at his house de 'downstairs' haas.. went wrong block .. *Laughs !! . Well,, im so hot and yet he wore a long sleeve! Madness .. haas`. The IRXINGpeh keep don wan come down lo.. quite pek chek la.. but.. after awhile.. ok le.. quite of dissapointted ! hehs`.. Slack awhile and went to TampMall walk walk.. eat eat hoo hoos and acc they two go arcade !! SIAN !! haas.. tey play until very shuang while i rot 'playing' with a uncle! quite enjoy. hahas`` den meet DARLING,JEAN && TESSA !!.. yupps.. and they come down less den an hour? and went to alj.. so the 3 cutie.. (me,damian,gavin) went eat at MAC den to slack at void deck lo... hehs` quite a nt bad chat with the 3 of us la.. hehs`` ^^ actually wanted take pics together.. but cos of my night 'look' .. YUCKS was the best word to descirbe me! haas`.. sorry about that ! ^_^" reach home 10++pm lo.. i lost my standered ticket at the mrt! haahas.. so stud of me siah. went home bath come out pray .. den midnight,, IRXING called me,, haas` chatted awhile.. den went back sleep le.. tired out!..
TODAY~ Tired ! Sleepy! No strength! Empty mind! ... hahaas` ^_o yupps. stayed home all day! guai hor? Now blogging lo.. yepps. =D
[LOVE.MATTERS]
`` ＃对你的思念是一天又一天！You're all tat i wan, all tat i need,just tell me you like me too & my heart wont bleed...
*Used me up and left me behind
Somthing true will I ever find
The pureness I saw in you must've been all in my mind
Feeling like a rollercoaster taken for a ride
See you've caused all the pain I now feel inside
I dont understand why couldnt we try
You let a good thing pass you by
It hurts so much that I cannot cry
All built up but wont leave my eye
In a way I think its my fault, that I am to blame
I cant shake this guilt Ill never be the same
Gave up so much for you, let anything go
Theres still so many things I want you to know
But these words will never be spoken
Because Im all choked up and my heart is broken*...
(SHOUT.OUT)
`` I was once captivated by the things you would say.
Just seeing you, would brighten up my day.
Now it seems as if that has all changed.
The only thing you do, is cause my heart more pain.
I wish I had known who you really were.
It wouldn't have been so hard.
The agony inside me, makes it hard to breathe.
The impact you had, was so hard to believe.
Now the walls are there, forever guarding my heart.
If only they had been there, to protect it from the start.

Boy; Please don't lie... I would cry `` Say that you love me, Say that you'll care!

TORNADO spotted at east coast park TODAY !! tis pic are taken by my sister at her office .. omg! tornado in singapore can? LAUGHS!! .. wonder today news got anot. heh. gona watch!

hehs`` just finish doing my nails.. and im so happy ! hope those pictures wont drop out siah.. holiday come le!! $$ going fly le siah.. drinking shopping playin !! o man~ come to think of it ... my world's falling apart !! hhaas` today never go school.. cos i start holiday myself.. wulalar~Ystd slept at 5am can? have a midnight chat with my BAOBEI && IRXINGpehjiahui la.. hahas`` . heehaa* ok. im very guai today . Know what? I HELP MY MOTHER DO HOUSECHORES !! *claps&cheers* hahas.. LOL; i mop the floor and clean the toilet ... hahas` lucky the toilet not dirty !! or i faint ahs ! LOLs.... && help to clean some other stuffs too la. sian leh come to think of bathing.. my mother still haven buy the pantene lo!! and she ask me use the dove de shampoo first!! like fuck?! i cnt use dove la.. hair were very dry for me.. use dove i must apply lots of moisturizer lo.. bad bad bad !! haahs. going bath soon ! ^_^" tomorrow meeting DAMIAN .. wonder my DARLING wanna come along. haas` very long never go play RF le! missing it eversince exams ! hehs`.. *The world is still very beautiful .. till now i still rmb NICOLE tell me de things.. hahas.. dont wei le ai ! yepps.. i can live strong and well.. i still got YOU ALL out there ! Kick it !! =D... ~
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ It does'nt really matters now . #我想我可以习惯一个人生活。我想我可以假装不曾爱过！
(SHOUT.OUT)
`` ***yeo ; sorry !! ... didn't mean it !~

DarlingDEAD!!; call me when you sees this ... loves*
BESTFRIENDS(HS)~ i miss you lots .. hehs`.

How much of me have you seen?
My future~ lawyer.. hahas``
I OWN this world ! yepps.. haah`
At the top of the supreme court..
NNO!!~ Shahrul.. don't jump ! hehs`
The merlion!! spiiting out saliver..mei li mao
Bumboat.. heh` quite fun la..
At the church! Do you wanna marry me? We'll walk together ...
Was takin tis pic den suddenly the policeman stop me !!

YESTERDAY~ was havin a SIAN day la can? hahas`. my mother's de birthday lo.. never go school.. was tired out la.. waited my jie and everybodi come back from work den i go pompom and get readi!!.. after tat, went TEOHENG!! and sang.. a singing bad day lo pls.. the mike didnt work well and i lost my voice!! den HOSENG && co. came down.. hahas. WOW!! His hair now very stylo can? hahas.. still a bomb la him!! OOPS!>_<" hahas.. after they went off.. my voice came back le! hahas. QINGREN de bday comin le.. and he invited!! dunnoe my DARLIN wan go anot siah.. i dun wanna go alone pls.. hehs`.. Clanece called me .. he shi lian le.. so i went out of the room and pei him chatt.. and he felt beta! of cos la!.. im a kind soul lo.. hehs`^^ hehes`. den SAM called me .. and pei him chat awhile,, den curb le.. cos i wan sing !! yepps. reached home around 12am?? slept at 2am++ lo..
TODAY~ Nver go shool again.. hahas ^^ very tired. erhmms.. now at home blogging and loadin some of this photos taken on the trip ... yepps.. onli a little la.. some i deleted!! cos lazy load in.. very mahuan lo.. hehs.. >.o haha` At home grow mushroom~ nothing do.. feelin abit bu hao shou lo.. gona call DARLING later ask her things. hehs!!
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ You make me so confused ! wasn't it a game ? I've never treated it as game till the day u tell me its JUST A GAME!.. Yes! i like sweet talks.. onli from the guy i love !.. and u took it as a routine? You told me u love me jus cos i liek sweet talks? You are SSOOOO wrong boy.. Don't play on with my heart! Tell me,, You didnt want it turns out this way.. #原来你什么都不想要`Teach me to write postive when inside me was negative...
*I want to let go...but then I can't...
I know I should...If only I could.
Tears of pain and tears of hope...
It was these times I need you just to cope.
You turn around and hurt me bad, you spin my heart, and make me sad.
I miss you, I wish you could see...
How much I think about you and me...
Down my heart, there forms a crack.
It was created a little while ago... Because of how much I want you back.*
(SHOUT.OUT)
`` Tell me; You aren't lying afterall !! Could you?
I acted like nothing was happening
but deep inside i was dying
for a while i was fine
never to relize i was blind
that im still in love with you
I really wishes I didn't love you
because then I could leave you
like you left me
but if it was ment to be
then you would be here with me .

Boy; Tell me.. what do you want now. i'll pass the token to you. You start the ball rolling this time !

TODAY nothing to post la.. Pictures were be uploaded maybe tmr or the day after lo.. cos many many photos`` lazy go upload. hahas`.. today got a tour?.. at the raffles there.. den got some xialan guys .. haha` was quite fun when di-siaoin them la.. with Nicole & co. Den YING2,JEAN this 2 idiiots keep disturb me about my hp thing AGAIN lo!!.. haha`. not funny la hor.. hehs`.. my hp now were always FULLL de batt ok? haha``.. after that.. went home and den bath and when to meet my JIE and go shopppin with her.. bought some earrings and one top onli lo.. sianz la can? walk around like MAD!! leg sibei pain.. den buy sushi and eat on the bus while on the way go city plaza find BEN change my JIE de hp.. cos abit salt salt lo.. =D hehs``.. the phone blink here and there lo.. haha` . bought a cake and perlin silver de ring for my mother as her birthday present... her bday tmr lo.. so mayb going celebrate for her.. as while family !! haah`.. yepps. Lo0kin forward to tommorw !.. o my ~ *somebody* is 'sick'??? LOLs; ended up in hospistal tis noon,, and i feel his LYING!! hehs`.. cannnot really blive ! something wrong.. don noe how t trust back lo.. tis the prob. cos he likes to lie ? mayb lo.. sianz.. wad for siah?/after all the walkin.. tired ah!
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ I think you still take that as a game ? hehs`.. i got nothing to say !!.. Wait && See only lo.. Final decision = o.0 #不会哭也不会笑！！ wo zhen de lei le !!.. tired out~
(SHOUT.OUT)
`` #我可以忍受你不爱我！我无法忍受你伤我！ Hit me baby one more time ... ~

Boy; don't play me out le can? For now as a please !

hahas``.. sian la !! Today stay at home all day beat flies lo.. hehs` . Never go school today la. Cos.. don feel like lo.. hehs`.. ER ZI just msg me to ask me call him.. but,, I DON WAN!! i wan play comp. hahas. gona kill me .. hehs.. =D very tired out.. donnoe wad to write. mayb at night gt new things to write lo.. were come back edit. haha``. Just now i call XIAOSNAKE ,, but his father pick and says tmr den he were be at home.. im sad, i very MISS him la can? realli lo.. ah!! miss him lots~ oouuhh...gona call him tmr again !. hehs. hopes he's back. Confused mind i have now..
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ Nothing ! ... ok? ＃你不须要我，因为你不爱我！别再骗我了好吗？骗我很开心吗？Sttop ur lies can? I don't know which sentence you say is real lo.. It's like makes no difference ! Makes no sense !. Though i know mayb i'll feel abit sadded``.. but i dunnoe why my heart just seems to let go le.. got a feelin like : You wan lie ah? then lie lo.. Not gona give a damn le.. its nt a matter of hurt me deep or wad sai la.. anyway.. im putting you down. Not going to think and vex myself over this kind of small little things alrights?Help me to trust you ?_Don't speak sweetly to me or express ur so-call love if u arent in love with me ok? && Ni ai wo ma?
*What we thought was love and happiness? Is now gone all that's left is to move on. Say goodbye and walk away. Take my wounded pride put it aside. The game of love i have lost. My broken heart is the cost. Count my blessings and pray. Maybe i will win at the game of love one day. Just learn when to walk away. Im strong enough to say good bye. Don't hold back it's okay to cry as love hurts sometimes *
(SHOUT.OUT)
`` My body gets weak,
my heart beats faster then usually.
I'm suck in a zone,
a zone where I am lost in love.
Lost in love with a person who doesn't even know I exist.
Love is so blind
that he doesn't even notice the signs.
He doesn't notice how much I think about him from time to time.
He doesn't notice how much I want him to be mine.
Will he ever know, only time could tell,
Man, if he only knew how I feel.
Prominicious guy are you?
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= NICOLE:: hahas`` i never peng wei hor. im realli quietest girl can? i wanna slp lo.. its that 2 noisy (jean & ying) keep disturb me abt my hp hor! ahahs..i go down how can have peace? ying comfirm noisy inside .. i belive you HAVE too. hahas`.. love you ! that bangla sucks la.. yucks! dont tok abt it.. i dont even dare go tink can? LOL; YINGYING:: eh!! now FULL batt hor. mai siao siao/ tt day going no batt nt cos i keep sms hor. hahas. is i use it to play songs lei.. WULALA~ haahs.

Only i care for you !
Ah ma && Sun nu ~
Feel me baby ~ =D There's no reason for me to love you ``
What's love? I forget .
Creatin some sort of sexy pose? hahas` my darlin behind me!

YESTERDAY~ went sing post meet ER ZI first then went TEOHENG again to sing with JEAN,DARLING,SHUHUI,LAUREL,ER ZI & YING2``.. was very fun can? hahas.. den went around the centre to ask for 'something'..took only afew pictures lo sian.. nvm. LOL`.. and tt was abit of embarrasing la~ After that.. went off together with TESSA den walk to eat katong laksa.. but due to the poor attitude of tt worker.. everybody dont wan eat.. so took cab down to east coast and ate Macdonalds la.. follow on,, went arcade and play lo.. but i never play la.. was very sianz`` so i jus walk around or go hoohoos and sit at the motor rock here and there !!.. Next,, NICOLE & FEN was 'blowing' us go downtown meet up to go KRAVEN'S de bbq.. so we quickly get there.. while walkin to the pit,, the pathway was very dark can? and ashes flew into my eyes and that was FCUKING PAIN can?.. lucky never blind lo.. haahs`.. and finally i saw my dognut ! and its strawberry. i wan white choc de lo.. Si kraven.. hahas``.. OOPS!! and SAM called me so i acc him chat and chat.. quite lame la can??.. hehs``. Den went the arcade there and it was quite boring actually. so no need say so much` in the end.. jus wait for tessa's de mother come sent me home lo. =D nice !! and inside the car... those girls was very kaobei.. OOPS!! haahs// im the quiet ONE there !! (pls don giv comments) lols...and as my hp was low batt le. So ying2 && jean.. this 2 IDIOTS!! was di siaoing their hp still full batt can?? argh! smack them. haahs`. laughing all the way la..ying2 VERY NOISY!! reach home qround 1++.. tired out.. bath le come out SAM call me chat again and i go orh orh liao .. have a fun day !!
TODAY~ early morning wake up and prepare go Tamp pray.. and was abit late la.. cos my bro can? keep slp like dunnoe wad siah``.. went there chant after tt eat den go home and here i am blogging ! hehes`.. cute hor? hahas.. nth much write la.. eyes closing `` never hav a good slp .. zzzzzzz...... zzzzz ......
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ I see a NEW path... but dunnoe should i walk that path`.. cos he told me .. and i don realli beliv lo.. so was still having a brain attack la.. mayb times goes by i should noe my choice lo.. heh``.. it happen de too fassssst abit le can?? hahas`..
~ I've filled my heart with my blood . There's no space left for you . Boy; You really play hard . & i cant tak it anymore.. let it go le ! and im happy now.. smile always ! The world is still very beautiful can?.. ＃记得我死去的爱情！不曾忘记你伤我心。甜言蜜语都向雨，不留而去！不再回头，因为爱错！ Save back my heart if only you love me.. Leave it to die if you dont.. *No promises .
(SHOUT.OUT)
`` I thought I knew you (knew you well)
But out of the Blue
Came a story to tell.
You loved me--
very much you said;
You even had hopes that Thee
I would wait.
Unfortunately (back in the past),
you did a thing
that caused us not to last
for much more than a fling.

My heart was broken

Words could never be spoken
to repair it-not even by you.

[LOVE.MATTERS]
~At first when we met
We said hi
Now we're still friends
But we've said goodbye
I gave you a chance
And you rejected
You said it's not good right now
And you stand corrected
You see what you've lost
At least I hope you do
You see what others can have
But not you
I don't mean to sound conceited
Or vain in any way
I'm just merely pointing out
What you had, and threw away
I liked you a lot
I honestly did
But did you feel the same?
Were there feelings you hid?
If you had feelings for me
You didn't show it
Because things are over now
And I didn't know it
If you didn't have feelings
Then why did you say so
When the only person you trust, lies
Then where do you go?
I just wanted to say
Thought you needed to know
These feelings I have
Need to be let go

Boy; is this what you want?

haha``just now went to my BRATHER de house help her dye her hair.. but i never really help her.. i at her hse use comp .. hahs` so my DARLING help her instead lo.. LOL.. today de oral sibei sian ah. nth to do de lo. the chinese de teacher very loulan lo.. knn... fuk her upside down ah !! =D hehs.. o.0 lookin at the 2 retards dying hair now. hehaas~ lokin forward to tomorrow !! cos mayb im meetin my BAOBEI.. hehs`` hope can meet dao him.. yea =P ystd got abit of shi lian de gan jue.. Thanks for those who had consoled me ! iLOVEyouGUYS man ! hahas. HONEY ! thanks too alrights? don say i not good hor !! .. hahas`` tmr going to KRAVEN's de BBQ .. yepps. lo0kin forward to it.. hope can take lots lots de pictures la.. hahas` hope wont rain or very hot.. or else hongan ! hahas`` . EXAMS are finally OVER can? hahas`.. ooohhoohhh ~ im waiting for tmr.. to enjoy the fun/.. (hope it's fun) .. hehs`. Tomorrow de time schedule very messy and tight siah !! gona be mad man. hehes`..
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ Actually i didn't shed tears.. Jus wana see the reaction. Dissapointted eh? ` You lie, so CAN i !.. haha`.. i can smile w/o you . hehs. i've got an empty heart now !! congrats me can? ~ yepps.What's love? I FORGOT ! lol.
Sometimes i really wonder what's on ur mind. i kept browsing thru all those sweet msges u have sent . but i guess its time to delete it.. its all lies.. The best i can do is to remain silent....Ask me that question again ; && i'll tell you that i rather don't know you! because you have really hurt deep in me .＃你爱我吗？最后一次问你这句话！　　　　　　　　　　如果不爱，从此分离。
(SHOUT.OUT)
`` qing ren ; u sai la .. hehs` .. im waiting for you ~ping: thanks ! =D

* I really cant bear to put an end to it. But the fact is the fact. I can't change it back le. Don't say you love me when you don't even know me. If you really want me den give me sometime. What i have now is just an empty heart . There's nth except all my GANs !! hehs`` . Try saving it if you can. Trusts ? i've lost it . Help me find it back or leave it dead !
`Boy; Do you wanna let it go too? i'll try my best to .

Alrights.. I'll let it go . Goodbye ; You won't care anyway. NANA:: thanks for ur help. but i dont need it le. hahas` i'll lead my own happy life.. rmb go out on sat o!! hehs`.. ER ZI:: thanks for consoling me man ! u hit my world .. ahahs`` lets go gaigai together hor.. heh`` cya tmr. =D
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~ Everything is just a lie. No promises. Never a trust in you. You've been lying all tis while perhaps. Though it hurts abit to lose you, But i rather lose u den lose my own smiles. You started all this out yourself. ＃最爱最很都是你！我不后悔！..Maybe life without you might be much more happier ! I've got nothing much more to say le.
i really hated to let you go boy ~Y must u do tis to me? Maybe im ur funtime .

*Should we be like the past?

Hey GIRLS don't you stop.Keep going until u hit the spot!
Hit me up =D
Me with my poor camera skills. hahas``
我真的累了！
Nicole & Me ~ reflected skill...
Feel me darling. hehs``

hahas` all tis pics is ystd de ystd de.. today den upload` lalalaas~.. nothing great to write.. now still trying to edit my blog skin.. new skin maybe were be put up at a later date laa.. nt so fast` abit lazy do lei.. hahas` sibei mahuan de lo.. feeling abit down. donnoe wwhy suddenly like tt.. maybe is mo0d swing?? o.0 don't care la.. jus abit quiet today lo.. hehs`` jus dont feel like open mouth tok or have any communications.. Not enough sleep ah !!! qi si wo le la.. Today have abit of 'talking things' with somebodi.. after tok ... jiu abit sian half la.. ~ rahs!@#$%^&*()_ after exam,, go hoohoos and slack with DARLIN & ER ZI lo.. den went home . ok. stop here ! >,
[LOVE.MATTERS]
~ Isit you? #就算是一个天一个地，也不清义放气！最好的爱，就让它沿续。最真的我，直想和你根靠进。最好的爱，是两人一起。最伤的心，就交给时间忘记。你永远在我心底！I tried to tell you I love you but the words were hard to find . I'm always thinking about you, you're the only one on my mind. Oh,why do I act so shy ?I'm afraid that I am not the girl you've searched for all these years... I love you den i love you now and i'll hold you in my heart. You make me happy and u make me sad. you make me angry and u ruin it, sometimes u reali sucks can? asss...im tryin to relax myself le.. *I still end the day with a shattered heart ..a miseries of pain...i like you eversince we first messaged ! now u tell me its for fun?... fine den.. i got nth much more to say... *tears*shaguaa.....
(SHOUT.OUT)
` Hit me up please !!...

haha` my blog finally the problem ok le.. its great can?? =D hahas`` today fren de fren got a bit of 'conflict'?? LOL.. see show tomorrow.. went tio heng with JEAN,ER ZI,NICOLE,LSF,QINGHUI & YING2..fen and jean come my hse slack while waitin for me to bath and get rdy gogogo.. hahas` den meet up with nicole,qingH and ying lo.. hehs.. was quite fun la.. but ystd more fun.. donnoe why lei.. hahas. and DARLING was next to our room only lo.. lols.. ^_^ sian siah` was very tired.. today chemistry sure fail de la. soo difficult. den tomorrow still got F&N exam.. rahhs~ dying soon man. heehaa*... after all the sing song part,, went eat katong laksa.. den took bus home.. actually nth realli happen laa.. so not alot things write lo.. hehs`` . never tak any pictures.. oh ya =p cannot upload photo now.. cos i dun have the photos in my comp.. so sad laaa.. hahas`` ^-^"maybe upload tonight?or tomorr lo.. waities..
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~ suddenly think of *** siah jus nw at tio heng.. dunnoe why. but nvm. haahs` maybe just nw at tio heng sing the zui jing den suddenly rmb him. hahas. cos he keep singing tt song last time.. lols.. SIANZ
~ sibei guailan ah sometimes.. gggrrrs.. wonder wad were happen more in times to come lo.. hahas`. I just could'nt say it,,I just could'nt admit it .. * #好想跟你表白。不知道 ,怎么说 喜欢你 .说不出口！爱你在心口难开。Can treat me beta? All along the small lil fights make me fall for you. hehs``. Hongsters NEVER DIE.. don't ever be one of them. i'll stay as long if you want me to. Boy , don't go. i'll stay for you. For nw as a please !! ＊心里有好多说不出的不满于快乐！What's the matter with you ?jiang zhen de.. ai ni hao xing ku. donnoe shuld happi or sad.. hais~ tell mi wad to do..Sometimes u made me hard to belive you. i donnoe to trust u or wad.. u can treat me like tt u oso cn treat other girls right?Up to you.. happy or sad..NO REGRETS!!
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` Hey GIRLS don't you stop! Keep going until you hit the spot !!! =D exams ending .. *weets*

FUN time i have .. yea! .. hahas. today went sing post with ER ZI to study? den after that went tio heng with NICOLE,JEAN,YING,DARLIN,LSF & ME!! sing until i got no voice siah` lots of high pitch? but i lyk best teaming sing the 'Ben Lai' with YING.. hahas` its nice. best song ever sang today can? picture to be uploaded on friendster instead here. cos blog spoil`` hahas. but upload tmr. hehs` inside the ro0m hoohoos and craps alots.. but got some parts cos i realli very tired.. so i ly on DARLIN de leg.. and lots of ocmplaints from her! hahas. =D she kiss me when im lykin on her leg can? eat my precious TOFU lo.. rahhs~ but its ok.. i can see she want me too.. =O hahas. den go play the read palm thingy,, and my love thingy was very high/ but luck sucks.. =X hmms... walk to parkway eat the cai tou kueh!! hahas. its was nice.. shared it with JEAN !! hahas`` den went hoohoos ... o lei lei .. o la la.. LOL.. =P den went to the arcade to play. but in the end never.. so took pictires instead~ hehs... den go see see shop shop around the centre.. nth great to see. saw one slippers very nice. but never buy!! den went home with YING. in bus tok lots of stuffs.. hahas,,den wak home.. tired!! going bath soon den go chant scriptures~ ^_^" LOL.. at least must chant 20minutes lo.. i bliv in it can le.. hahas` today somebodi make me angry.. wan me tok sweet but in the end say i er xing.. haaiiiiyyyyoooo~ donnoe who siah.. hehs`` but suan le la.. hahas.. going bath and remove make-up soon. tmr stil got exam lo.. very tired out but bo bian! hahas`
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~ Boy,, i want you close to me like never before..Can you do it? a simple task wont cost much aalrights?? #如果有一天，我们见面，世界会不会向我要的那一天？如果你爱我！都是如果的你。You make me smile..
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` GIRLS who went out today.. i love all of you !! next time tio heng again! hahas``

yawns.. nth great or special things happen lo. hahas`` was listenng to songs all along.. den my brother sick. sianz.. den now at home zuo bo lan. hahas`.. feeling okok lo.. o lei lei..LOL!!.. ^^ boring siah` ltr stil mus study. den tmr go sing post there study too. so guai of me can ma? hahas``..after school go slack at staircase again.. hoohoos` the wind quite big la. hahs.sianz leh` my fuckin brother sick den keep make lots of voice. die pls!! rahhs@#$%^&* going crazy! i wanna make my new blogskin.. but gonna takes up lots of time. were do it after exams ! hahas.
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~The future? i cant see anything . Does it really matters now?You just don't seems to care? you only know how to......nvm. Nt gona say much le. Just let it be the way you always wanted alrights?.. >_<"#心里的伤痛你不了解！...
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` Listen to the sound of my lonely voice.
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XIAO FIRE: you shut up la. nabei cb i gt scold ur mother ma? and u don fake xiao fire la pls! get a life man!.. u still xiao hai zhi ah? childish~ yawns./ ur mother never TEACH u don scld other ppl mother ah? kanina.. fuck off can?.. HUIHUI: nice one scoldin him. hahas` he yucks lo.. lol. aiya. u don care tt copicat do wad la.. ask her keep quiet la. ask her do act nian qing. yucks!! XIAORAIN:: nice to meet you too! =D NANA: thanks for scoldin tt guy too. hehs` love u la! hahas. XIAOHAO: u jus hav to call my jie aunty. hahas. cos she marrying soon.. o lei lei. hahas``

My blog got problem siah` cnt post pics or change font colour nor make my templetes lo! fuck siah.. feel like throwin it man.. rahhs!!@#$%^&*( ... nvm .. today very guai, stay at home study and play comp whole day.. hahas` no energy to walk ah! lose too much blood. lol.. >_<" my family and other go east coast play den i alone stay at home!! ARGH!!! sai la.. bored me to death!. bo bian.. just now went to *one* websites and viewed somebodi de profile and see le i sianz.. ji tao no mood lo.. gei gan`` donnoe why like tt . yawns. maybe i owe it to tt person.. Forgive && forget. lol. forget hu teach me tis siah`` faints* i'll tolerate ! bored and a lazy day for me.. kind of missing those past days.. always having a conference call with weiying ah or damian dey all.. sianz.. past= sweet memories.. hahas` times change.. ppl change along too.. is tis a must or cycle?? perhaps i've changed too ! must try to fit in to the surrounding.. hahas. the fresh atmosphere.. WOW!! my english so good .. lol.. Today donnoe y keep thinkin abt the past.. abt friends... things... ex stead... && mani mani more more..~ future?? dont ever plann ! cos it would go the opposite way u wanted it to be.. hehs`` . ok. don emotional le. now have to write my love matters.. the most important part of life!! ^-^
[LOVE.MATTERS] ~ What is it that you want?＃我想说：如果没有了你，我该如何往下走？... hahas,, *我要让你知道,that i wanna be your girl.一直想要问你:想不想....rock my world??... 不知道不知道,为什么对你说,喜欢你说不出口.好想跟你表白.im falling for you boy... `` don't ever ruin my smiles.
(SHOUT.OUT) ` DarLing.. call me when you see this!! the 8 girls[including me] ! ~ Work hard for ur exams.. ahahs
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~ My heart dies, and so are you. You've said tt. NO turning back. Im hurt`. Byess~

hehs`` today very early wake up le. i wake up at 10.38am HOR!! very early lei.. hahas` den went to meet DAMIAN at city plaza,, go collected somethings den went to ah ben de shop bought my EARPIECE!! finally. hahas. so happy can?. so stayed at the shop awhile to slack and chatted awhile lo.. ben suddenly so friendly!! wonders he is got problem anot siah` lol.. ^o^ hahas`` after tt, went sing post eat kfc and stayed down there study.Den i bought my eyebrow pencil & a brown colour laced tube! wulala~.. && bought a necklace too.. umbrella de pattern` loves!! hahas.. waited for DARLING come down pei us den we went east coast... just to play the arcade!! =_= so i seat there see see.. no energy to dance. lol. den went home..
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~ It's back to normal! hahas. but u sure u wan it tis way? don wan half way den gone again hor! miss u ! hehs`` ... #我想我以慢慢喜欢你！因为我开始想念你！我找不到很好的原因为何我会爱上你！i dont wan everytime bck to normal den back to badbad again!.. i'll hold u back, till it ends!
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` That's when i love you . iLOVEyou; Me && You ! Dreams,,Dreams ~ when we have jus started things.but sometimes u really SUCKS !!

It's been long never contact with SHAGUA le.. lol.. sianz,, haiz.. i wonder if he's brother is lying to me abt tis siah..MIA so long..` lol.. nevermind. i choose to belive!! haiz.. sadded tis few days. somethings unbearable which cant be written just like tis HAPPENED!... its nt meant to! toda after scholl go staircase slack hoohoos`` lol.. nice1 la hor. tok cock and craps lo.. but i was diam diam over there cos was busy thinkin over things` hahas. tmr maybe going study at alj? or sing post with ER ZI!! hahas. hope everythings alright.. sadditic!
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~ Times goes by no time to cry.. i let it go.. i know i could and i should! no promises .. never alive,never again,never the same !!. it fades away everytime.. everytime i try, i'll end up gettin hurt` maybe there's a reason over it, but i cant seems to see why! I care,, in the past! i love, in the past! Someday we'll see;Someday we'll go... new-affections,, new-beginning* i'll take evreything u said as a lie! i'll take everything as a lie. Maybe, a white lie.im falling off... ＃我的快乐从此，振发！不曾忘记一切。就这样，不回头！i blive i can//... *tears*
& 直到我清楚的想通
爱情不是唯一的靠山
春去秋来流转的时光
我总会走出悲伤迷团
爱过的记忆成营养
今后多爱自已一下
总会放下
总要长大
我会祝福他
转身把泪擦干.
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` Learn from your past .. Affinity ends ! *No promises. hurt...
睡梦里梦见你
看见我俩走在一起
在我心里问着自己
为何总是每个梦里有你

只有你让我管不住自己
希望你看出我一番心意
这一切都是因为你因为你

因为面对着你我才笑得甜蜜
爱像海水倒灌疯狂不息
想马上抱紧着你
把手放在你手心
快点问我在等待的问题

Today went to slack after school . hahas` at staircase with DARLING,FEN,NICOLE,JEAN & AK! was very fun la can? lol.. was happy .. went hoohoss together too. haha` did lots of stupid things lei.. the stupid FEN went to 'ride' the bicycle siah` den she tot very cute. so she continue! haha. took pics[unwanted kinds] .. lol.. den tok cock over there lo.. was a great time la ! JEAN was walkin around taking natural pics.. den all siam` cos very wierd lookin.. lol.. den DARLIN sit there laugh all her best! HAHA`` kind of mad la .. den AK sit there giving each of us some red 'hairs' can? haha. listened songs,tok cock, play.. haha` den after awhile, got some guys who claim themselves to be police de come up! hahas.. hacks la tis. was feelin quite down.. SHAGUA~.. .. worry for u u noe ma? see! im so good la can?. hahas. gan dong? ^_^.. kind of missing you toos! wad happen u siah. hahas.. im a nice mutou can?.. after slack for hours,, went home rest`` tired out*den while studyin, MINGZE called me and chatted with me.. he's a great entertainer too! hahas..
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~ Im really sad can? over you la ! all those fucking cb things sudden come up.. overcome it lo.. onli way out!＃心里还有千言万语还没说给你听！PLS don't go just like that arights?.. iMISSyou ! worrying deadly..
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` was GREATLY feelin low.. by some matters``.. sianz.. tired out le. jiayou evrybody de exams!

Guess who's hand all those! haha.
my DARLINGdead!!! This is an example of good sleepin posture!
KISSKISS!relax.. we nt les! hahas. ^_^
i can see you !

YESTERDAY~ morning while going to school, YANG called me and chat all the way until i go in school! he's a great entertainer too! hahas.. b4 the night we chatted for hours too.. very funny la him! hahas`` yesterdda was a quite a fun day `` my DARLING~T.weiying,, came to my house .. hahas` we took a bath and went downstairs to eat ! after tt we come back to study.. after studyin a while,, she actually helped me to shave my leg de hair can? lol`` she's good at it?? [hmms] haha` she LOVE doin tt man!! she can be a hair removeval la. hahas`` after finish all this yucky stuffs, she help me apple my whitening lotion!! den we did a prank call on SHAGUA! hahas.. lala`` we laid on my bedroom de floor and chatted throughout the time.. den we tok crap over there./ roll here & there! and she keep takin my lilttle pillow! den my pillow gt her hair smells.. eeks* haha. ^.^ nice smell la ass~.. lols... after she went home. den i guaiguai study `` yes! den at night suddenly my *secrets* very pain ah! i ate the medicine oso no effect.. until awhile den tak effect`mus quickly go check-up!! rahhs*... o.0 hahas.
TODAY~nothing happen actually.. went slack after to school.. went hoohoos`` hahas.. den went home` den BOII call me chat chat.. sianx//.. later mus go study again` tmr math.. rahhs !!. fuk.ing maths la'' yawns *.. hahas.
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~ Coming up ! Coming up !.. i'll see what you want and what you can do alrights?.. #全都傻在你眼里！爱你好幸福。傻人有傻福！
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`` my brother is a girl! i just found out ystd! lol..
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+ YING:: dont sad le ok? cheers up alrgihts?.. stay well.. LSF:: haha` ya lo. very the low blooded now ah! sad! hahas. HUIHUI:: the f. nurse de fault la.. ystd start again lo.. piang eh! if still dont go see doctor sure got problem lo.. how siah? i scared leh! rahhs! if got appointment u pei me go hor.. i dun wan mummy go,, she sure tok alot de! hahas./.

Nothing really happen la . quite buay gei yan somebody only lo.. sianz` feeling up && down again` after scholl got a quarrel with my ER ZI``` can?.. ER ZI::" we really never hear you say wait .. " .Went to eat at the malay store and the food there sibei nan chi ah! almost puke lo.. eeyea~>.o reach home le den i realised something ,, I FORGET BRING MY KEYS!!! so i gave a call to my mother.. and she came home to giv me the keys.. hahas. or else were have to sit at the staircase alone siah ~hahas.. very sleepy siah` the nurse called me and say the appointmnt at 8th of JUNE !! SIAO LO.. i wait till den alreadi die ah! no serious ill oso bcome very serious ah! piang eh``.. tmr gonna call and change to earlier date! o lei lei, o la la. no problem !.. tmr chinese exam. study hard hard !! must jiayou *.. ^.^ hahas.. ok.. going to bath le..
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~ . There won't be a day. A day where we were be ! toda got hurt le. You just won't care anyway....... *tears*. Let it go !Let it go !Let it go ! i chose to let it go! i HOPE i can. 如果想往回，还是来得急！No regrets//ai ni hao xingfu... #告诉我，谁是你的最爱？... i promise ! i promise... i won't sad``.. U very GUAILAN ~甜密的梦，容一碎。你不明白我的心！Tell me; if u belive if ur love culd make me stronger `dreams.of.me.&.you~
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`` Imagination running wild ! A selfish love leads to a deadly fall ! i've waited,, its time tt matters``

Tell me to stop loving u can?

Today went to tampines de soka association there pray to gohonzon... its really very true lo!.. hahas.. when i enter everybody was chanting and i dunnoe y i felt very scared when i heard it.. but after awhile jiu ok le.. lols``.. yea~ after tt, went to bedok there eat Macdonalds.. then, went home to study awhile, den jiu tak a nap! in the day i was very happy.. but now.. its night, im feelin very down! of all sudden and cos of somebody de selfish acts ! i dunnoe why tis person wan like tt lo.. cheebye`` nt the first time le lo.. i noe why,, but its realli abit too much!.. sians.. ystd see doctor the doctor giv me one type of medicine sae wad i eat le were be very moody. hahas`
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~ im feelin really down whenevr i tink of u ! every minutes and all time i keep thinkin of u! is tt a dream or is it real? im sad ! YES i do ! and i dunno why can? can u understand the feelings inside me tt hurts me really much? *tears*... i may nt express it to u nw.. is cos i noe u were find it ridiculous.. i noe hw i feel. but hw about yours?? . do u wanna be lyk tis forever or make some changes? . maybe u still feel its FUN ! .. but im serious ! let it b if u chose tis way. no forces ! no promises ! u blew hot and cold on me. hw would u feel if u were me? i dun wan cold! #明明白白我的心，可望一份真感情。曾今为爱伤痛了心，为何你种不理会我的情？.
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` im damn fucking stress out !. feelin sibei down ah ! tmr exam le. but im nt cos exam den feel down or stress la.. for some special reasons !..

today went see doctor ! guess wad? the doctor wan me go check up !! o no ! i don wan la.. sad lo.. hope nth happen to me man! scarred scared !.. lucky today got my DARLING && ER ZI `` pei me go see.. so i nt so scared! THANKS YEA! HAHAS.. lalallalalas``... now going study le.. maybe were be postin shorter frm now. cos got MYE`` must be a guaiguai nu study ! wulalar~ .. lols..saw nicole xiaoyu akk at mac.. haha.. got a hi and bye and went off``im sick now.. cough cough,,now DAMIAN at my house studyin with me. hahas`` my singing kept him awake siahs!! lols..
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~ is that all? jus like that? ok den.. let it be.. i noe wad u are le.. sians... maybe its just fun show u wanna see.. fine fine fine! wont force for sweet words... no point ! maybe tts wad u onli wan.. #我会放你一个人身活！tts all tt u wanted? dont regrets.. never a trust * never a promise * never mine!
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`` PRAY tt no problem for me!!.. im sick now..

Today in school nothing happen lo.. was realli very tired ! exam next week le la! sad... in class was worrying dead for someone can?... haiz.. i tink i started it again !! ~.~ wanna cry le la ! *sobs*... nt feelin high. was FEELING LOW! very down la... sometimes i wonder wads love la.. ups && downs sibei many ah !.. like fuk la .. rahs !~...*A stop,, marks a new beginning ! =D
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~ #你没发现我躲在角落！Let's pretend; we'll walk hand in hand .
Sadness filled me! It wasn't tt simple after all yea? am i hintin tt much or too little? ... *tearSSSS*... i wonder hav u ever sees the importance of this things.. i like you! YES I DO ! i miss you ! MORE DEN YOU ! It really hurts to be in tis kind of state...i've hurt myself to forget` cant u forgive?no promises * smile!talk!laugh!,, ending silently... i kept browsin through those messages we sent over & over again ! it means nth to u.. but it weighs hard on me.i dont noe wad more to say.Im sorry... It seems tt i cant shake those memories,,i wonder if u feel the same way too...tell me,...is tis the end?
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`` its unfair... i never get the chance,, cos u didnt gave me chance ! *sign*

BACK to m blogging lifestyle.. yeah !.. haahs. today in class really got a fun time man ! cos of my FANTASTIC singing,, everybody CANT STAND ME!!.. bo bians de la.. too hao ting le wad.. O.o haha``. haha` weiying and ing2 realli buay tahan me siah` but i simply like to see the faces they make whenever i sing. wahahas^^ its so fun can?. den today the cheebye ayrashhf pinch me which make me jump lo !!! !.! o my ... so i pinch him back,.hahas`` todae his birthdae`` but tts doesnt really matters!.. haha` ok. todat was textin *somebody* and i made him felt paiseh. but due to his thick skin. i dont think he were?...lol ~ my awsir very pain lo ! gona cry man ! i put salt but still no use lo! SO yong gan of me to put salt lo ! hehs~ proud of myself ! YEAH !!... HAHAS`` o my tian ah! my gan DOGGIE kept praising me.. and im floating soon.. haha.. *floating*... WEETS!!~ ... o DOGGIE!! swweet of u too yea? ^-^" lols.. in class, jerad and amos got abit of conflict? (acting some kind of unwanted actions!) .. hahas.. OOPS!! hahas... next week exam le ! gona go && study. WISH me luck baby !.. when going home tt time, was msging PING & he told me he were draw 'pictures' of wad i wanted.. haha` keep good ur word hor ping !.. hehes``.. so went home,ate a snickers and bath .... tired out..
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~ Does it matters now? u are funny.i dont noe wad are u thinkin !#不可思意！pls pls dont go, don tell me tt is over !!. ^^LITTLEST THINGS....... i love it && u OWN me !
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~ IM CRAZY !!.. feeelin quite high ! hahas.. T.weiying ! die tonight!>.<>

Tis is wad he did when i says i bite !.. lol
别说你很爱她！dreams of me & you !
Shagua edited tis !.. cute siah! hahas..
Im falling for you !
SO weird~ tied hair !! ^^
My brather tokin wit her fire! burning hot!.
I know its not right but it seems unfair !
Me & Nicole.. ke ai. at east coast arcade !

haha.. ystd was a fun time studying?? lol.. somethings cannot say here !.. OOPS~ haha.. o.0 it was fun yea?. kekes.. ^-^ Great happy time was held ystd.. but cos of some reasons. cannot say things out !! f that ........ nvm.. hacks!! errm.. well, today in schol wasnt tt good ... at chemistry lesson,, jus cos never bring the fuckin cb the book den ask HWEETING, ME & co. go DM room .. dunnoe lyk wad siah.. but hweeting was fierce !! wulalars~.. O.O hahas`` den tis wan nvm leh.. at F&N de period .. the lanjiao ms leong ask ME & WEIYING in class. den while walkin me and her chatted.. den of all sudden dunnoe wad tt ah leong say, den i ask her shut up and she actually PULLED MY PRECIOUS PATHETIC GENTLE HAIR cans?? wtf!! i sibei dulan lo.. i ji tao turn and gan her.. i wanted her to apologised!! but she didnt.. so we have a great quarrel shoutin acros each other!! and tt wasn't very fun alrights?? gggrrrrr~ >_<" anyway ,, thanks for the participation of YING2 & WEIYING to help me together 'attack' ah leong.. pui cb !! Humpt !!.. tt wasnt nice of her ! she don have the right canns?.. sua... so hav a chat durin geography lesson! hahas.. After school went to staircase slack ! thanks NICOLE for the hoo hoos.. lols`` den after awhile.. went home.. and was dead tired !! took a bath and here blogging * yeah! hapy to see me blog huh? >.O hahas..
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~ alrights,, i don't noe how do you feel towards .. i jus wanna carry on like tis ! can? hahas.. *im falling for you* Loving u in silent isnt wad i always do.. but its a special just for you ^^ i may nt noe wad are u thinkin.. but i hope that mind occupies me ! #听道我的电话响了一下就响听。会不会是你我种怀疑！因为这原因心情不坚定。i promis to 'Never.Say.Goodbye' !.. iNEEDyou:)
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~ o my tian ! pls stop wondering over my relationship things can?... its funny,weird,no-words cn explain... haha` yupps !>.<" im happy with it .. ^o^ haha.. LITTLEST THINGS own me !*JEALOUSY KILLS ~